- no fast food and cook meals at home
- exercise daily
spend more time reconnecting with chris
- take more pictures
- explore more unique and local places to eat and be entertained
- write more poetry
- do volunteer work
- spend more time outside
- finish decorating tha crib
- no tv
- dress up
the results: horrible. absolute disaster. unproductive. and completely unsuccessful. reconnecting with chris isn't a light switch I can turn on and off. not with his mind somewhere else. work is the ultimate culprit. he is to blame for chris's disengagement to life. and work is something I simply cannot control. the best I can do is keep myself busy to preoccupy my mind in order to avoid negative and depressing thoughts about my relationship.
which leads me to month two: exercise daily.
I was having trouble choosing which challenge I wanted to complete this month. I really wanted to become an at home cook, but then I realized there's a lot going on this month (birthdays, valentine's day, superbowl, my dad's first paycheck, puppysitting payment) that will make it hard for me to achieve that. then I thought why not spend the month dressing up - I just bought some cute outfits and would love to wear them. then I thought why not finish decorating our house so that we can feel like we live in a home.
what ultimately influenced me to make a decision is a comment I received from chris's dad over the weekend.
"so, Alicia, what do you like to do for exercise?" he asks me this EVERY time I see him.
"you know, being a sedentary is much worse than being overweight."
gee. thanks. ass.
it's not that I am a couch potato. it's that after working 8-10 hours a day, driving 2 hours a day, and sleeping maybe 5 hours a night, once I get home from work, I relax for maybe 2 hours (either watching tv or napping). eat dinner. watch a game. then go to bed.
I am not doing this challenge to admit that his dad is right. nor am I doing it to please his dad. I am doing this because I have been unhappy with my health and weight and I have been wanting to change it for some time. and exercising will be a wonderful way to distract me from my relationship.
- to flatten down my stomach
- to tone the rest of my body
- to gain muscle
- to be at a healthy weight*
- must spend at least 30 minutes exercising for first 2 weeks of the month
- must spend at least 60 minutes exercising for the second 2 weeks of the month
- vary my exercise routines between yoga, Wii fit, pilates, dance workouts, & running or biking**
- keep track daily of weight progress
- keep frequent track of appearance
- eat healthier by cutting out excessive snacking
I will start tomorrow by revealing my weight gasp! and showing pictures of my unflattering parts. hopefully you won't be too grossed out. I truly believe I have the ability to succeed this month. at least I'm totally motivated now.
*healthy weight is determined by either (1) my Wii Fit profile - currently, I am classified as "underweight" and would like to be at "normal weight" and/or (2) being at the weight that will allow me to donate blood (110-125 lbs) but this may have to be combined with the eating at home challenge.
**running or biking will be me joining chris in his routine.