So instead of continuing to hold myself back, I've decided to continue growing. That's what my tata believed in. He believed in always improving yourself. Once he mastered cooking, he learned how to paint. Once he mastered painting, he learned how to craft anything with wood. That's how he lived. He was always learning and improving and increasing his skills and talents. And I want to follow his beliefs and not let him down. I want to honor him by living my life like he did.
So instead of being unhappy for yet another year, I've done something I never thought I had the strength to do. And now I feel weird. I'm not sure what to do next. But I do know that I will be ok. And that I will continue to grow. And even though I'm terrified, I'm happy with where I am right now. My life. Is good.