a pep talk to myself

I am strong.

I am special.

I can do anything.

sometimes life throws hurdles in our path,

but we just have to keep on going full speed ahead,

looking inside ourselves

for the courage to leap over them

and never look back.

always believe in yourself

as much as others believe in you.

I have this in a little wallet-sized card that my sister (megan) gave me for my birthday. one of the most touching things I've received in awhile. I cried. 

chris and I are going to his grandma's for 9 days. she lives on the edge of new york by pennsylvania. I've been told there's no internet. I'm hoping the lack of technology will allow us to bond and remember not only that we need to live life and not be focused on work all the time but also what brought us together as a couple in the first place. I'm hoping our fire can be reignited and that we can bond again so that I can't stand being in the same room as him.

I am strong.

I am special.

I can do anything.

new week = new attitude

ahhh I hate when I get all depressed and bummed and write mushy lame posts that make no sense to anyone but me pretty much because it's filled with so much rambling - although, which of my posts are not filled with ramblings? anyways, although I still feel pretty crappy and un-optimistic about where my relationship with chris is going, I did manage to get him to talk with me saturday morning. if he stays true to his word (for once) and I can stop being so bitchy all the time, there may still be some hope for us. I still think we need some serious professional help though. just someone we can talk to to help us find a way we can talk to each other. but we'll see.

that's my motivational face - in case you need a little
motivation on this monday morning

it's a new week. and with new weeks comes new days. (that was deep, huh?) I woke up early, probably because I didn't sleep well at all last night (woke up four or five times between 8pm and 4am) and took a shower. I got out, and I felt motivated. (I always seem to do that when I shower monday mornings.) but so far my motivation hasn't faded yet. (sure, it's only 10am.) so I'm hoping it will last until I get home so I can get some shit done around the house. and maybe I can even get a little bit of exercising done. (if you can call wii fit and dancing aerobic videos exercising - hey, gotta start somewhere right?) and maybe this motivation will put me in a good mood for the rest of the week. and I won't be bitchy to chris and he'll be nice and loving to me and we'll live happily ever after!

hope everyone else is having a motivational monday.

a little pep in your step

a quick pepper update. the fecal flotation result came in. she has coccidia which are small organisms that live in the intestinal tract of dogs and cats. it's super common in puppies who have a weak immune system and who are stressed in other ways (such as change in ownership). it causes mild to severe diarrhea. coccodia or coccidiosis - is treatable. the vet gave us some albon medication which is effective in treatment. She said that it should clear up in 3-4 days. they also insinuated that if a puppy survive parvo after five days, it pretty much has it beat.

soo, starting to feed pepper her normal food on day 5 of parvo treatment must've triggered the organisms to attack or something causing her to get the shits. it is possible thay she already had parvo beat. and in that case, this new illness is easily treatable and therefore pepper is on her way to being a happy and healthy puppy.

hopefully only three more days until we can fatten her up again.